So I tackled Social Security today. My name change went through just fine, despite their confusion about whether I had appropriate ID, as I currently have a temporary driving license and my most current passport is from when I was 3 months old, and was issued in Germany ( Read more... )

I'm having worse dysphoria tonight than I've had in quite a while, and I'm not sure why. Maybe because I went out in public (around strangers, not people who know me) for the first time in a few weeks and got reminded that I'm still being perceived almost completely as female. Maybe because I haven't seen any noticeable changes from the ( Read more... )

Wow, major depression tonight. I almost don't want to post, because nothing I'm thinking is rational, true or pleasant to read, but I suppose I should have a record of how I'm feeling.

( Cut so as not to expose the unwary to the morass of rubbish that is my brain tonight )

It's so hard to hold on to who I really am when I'm working. I don't terribly mind working-me, but I'm not sure this complete dissociation is healthy, either. At this point I'm not sure how much dissociation is normal, since I've obviously had a long pattern of doing it too much. And there are so many parts of me that are NSFW (not safe for work ( Read more... )